Virgin 1 year anniversary
27.6 It is almost 9 am still I have 20 minutes left to write something down. You know maybe I am starting to think that the best way if you are mentally ill to get better is to do art. I am not saying you shouldn't go to therapy,that is definitely the best to get professional help. But if you can't get help for whatever reason and you live with something for a longass period of time maybe the best way to cope with it or to at least live a normal life is to create some sort of art out of it it doesn't matter what it needs to be in my opinion as long as a human made it purely on their own. I guess you really need to be mentally ill to some extend to be a good artist I don't know what it is necessarily but it is something deep inside me that wants to say what is happening without the direct and I can't even say what I feel directly it is all over place my thoughts are all over place but with art it feels controlled it feels like maybe one day someone will understand.Maybe I should start again to do something I don't mean like vent art put just deeply personal art something which says a lot about me. I don't care anymore about if people see something ugly inside me or whatever there is. I am way too old for that .